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Jan. 10th, 2005 08:51 amThis has not been a fun weekend.
The above is an understatement.
I find myself sitting here wondering if I am just wasting time with all of this. It's not like I'm writing the Great American novel. It's not like this stuff is going to be preserved for future generations. I never finished the stuff for ThunderCats, TW still pokes me about that every now and then.
I think it was Mei that I told that I was going to reach a point where I would coast downhill again. I think I might be at the top of the hill.
Laura asked me last night if I would finish the PPBs. I have four left. Can I recall them from memory, let's see, Orophin's Pumpkin which is in the 20s, number 25 I think. Flute and Fiddle, with Haldir really realizing he's fallen in love with Elodien, that's number 39?42? I think 39. Then 'Rumil's Fit', working title only, him finding out that his son is now bound... that's in the 30s, 34. And Mandos Hall, which is Elrond having to decide whether he wants to go and see Arwen's spirit one last time or be at home for Vilya's birth, number 37 I believe.
Only #34 is started, the others have some notes. But I look at them and go 'blah' like Snoopy does when the root beer tastes bad.
I never finished that first story, Friendly Wagers. It's not that far from being done. But I got bored with it, I suppose. And now I'm getting bored with the rest of it. I still love to read it, and I still love LittleBalrog, and I would never off and run away from that. But...
I'm glad I'm heading to FL at the end of the month. It'll give me some time to think this stuff through. For the record - I'm not depressed, those of you who think you're reaching that conclusion. (Though, the loss the Pack had from the Vikings, that was depressing, but did not make me depressed)
I spent from 97-00 in the TC fandom, 98&99 being really active. Then I was off during 01, 02 getting the masters. 02 I started to get into the online Tolkien stuff, 03&04 being really active. Technically, the pattern should continue... I taper off this year and go off my own way next year. Monty keeps tugging me towards HP. I'm not saying that's what's going to happen, but it COULD happen. I've had a Tonks-muse show up now and then, it's possible.
Or I could just start my own fandom. Granted, I need something to base it on to begin with... *cue scary music and flashing lights just because*
Well. I shall do my best to get those last four bunnies done. But if I have to sacrifice them to keep my little blue dragon alive...
Maybe my dragon's a vegetarian...
-Zhie
The above is an understatement.
I find myself sitting here wondering if I am just wasting time with all of this. It's not like I'm writing the Great American novel. It's not like this stuff is going to be preserved for future generations. I never finished the stuff for ThunderCats, TW still pokes me about that every now and then.
I think it was Mei that I told that I was going to reach a point where I would coast downhill again. I think I might be at the top of the hill.
Laura asked me last night if I would finish the PPBs. I have four left. Can I recall them from memory, let's see, Orophin's Pumpkin which is in the 20s, number 25 I think. Flute and Fiddle, with Haldir really realizing he's fallen in love with Elodien, that's number 39?42? I think 39. Then 'Rumil's Fit', working title only, him finding out that his son is now bound... that's in the 30s, 34. And Mandos Hall, which is Elrond having to decide whether he wants to go and see Arwen's spirit one last time or be at home for Vilya's birth, number 37 I believe.
Only #34 is started, the others have some notes. But I look at them and go 'blah' like Snoopy does when the root beer tastes bad.
I never finished that first story, Friendly Wagers. It's not that far from being done. But I got bored with it, I suppose. And now I'm getting bored with the rest of it. I still love to read it, and I still love LittleBalrog, and I would never off and run away from that. But...
I'm glad I'm heading to FL at the end of the month. It'll give me some time to think this stuff through. For the record - I'm not depressed, those of you who think you're reaching that conclusion. (Though, the loss the Pack had from the Vikings, that was depressing, but did not make me depressed)
I spent from 97-00 in the TC fandom, 98&99 being really active. Then I was off during 01, 02 getting the masters. 02 I started to get into the online Tolkien stuff, 03&04 being really active. Technically, the pattern should continue... I taper off this year and go off my own way next year. Monty keeps tugging me towards HP. I'm not saying that's what's going to happen, but it COULD happen. I've had a Tonks-muse show up now and then, it's possible.
Or I could just start my own fandom. Granted, I need something to base it on to begin with... *cue scary music and flashing lights just because*
Well. I shall do my best to get those last four bunnies done. But if I have to sacrifice them to keep my little blue dragon alive...
Maybe my dragon's a vegetarian...
-Zhie
